Confessions

At this time tomorrow I’ll lie to myself again
I will lock away the sorrow, you won’t see that I’m in pain

I will hide behind a smile and say everything’s ok
But tonight, just for a while, what I feel I’m gonna say

I am scared of how they see me, I feel lonely everywhere
I see my life and feel sometimes It’s just slipping away

While I own a heart that no one wants, I walk alone at night
My intentions and my actions always end up in a fight

It is hard to remind myself everything will be just fine
When I don’t feel who I wanna be and I’m running out of time

I am the first person to punish me when I do something wrong
I don’t want to cry in public ‘cause it shows that I’m not strong

I always seek perfection, even if I know it won’t be there
I don’t tell people my feelings ‘cause I think no one would care

I hate crying but I can’t do it easy ‘cause all those times before
When I thought myself to hide it so now I can’t do it anymore

I think I’m all right on my own but I feel a hole in my heart
I am waiting for someone to cure it but I’m scared no one will come

Sometimes I feel I don’t deserve to be loved, I’m not worth the try
And the wings that I possess are not good enough to fly

But I don’t feel like this every day, sometimes I am just fine
So maybe this time tomorrow you will see again my smile…